well guys... i feel like i should post but i dont have many good things to say.  its been a really really rough week.  i feel like i screwed up way too much this week.  i feel like anyone who gets close to me i end up hurting.  and i guess thats true of everyone at some point or another but do i have to hurt everyone in three days?  well apparently i did.  and it stunk.  but on the good side, that horrible streak is over and i think ive managed to patch things up.  you know with things like that... you can never fix it.  its just a matter of patch and go.  and that makes me very sad.  well final papers, projects, and exams are looming, but currently im feeling pretty good.  i wont next weekend but im doing good now.  i feel like im pretty much finished in a four classes except taking (or writing) the final.  spanish is going to be a bit of a problem, but if i get on top this weekend it shouldnt be bad.  i also need to do everything for my book discussion this weekend, but that also shouldnt be too difficult.  and when you guys write your journal entries do you see this ugly "smilie" face thats itching these red dots?  cuz that is the most distracting thing ever.  well i need to get to bed... i guess.  lol.  ill post again when i have something really happy to post about

oh, i did stand outside for a thunderstorm.  that was lovely.  then it started hailing so i stood under a little porch thing... but the thunderstorm was good.

awww, that definitely sounds like a rough week.
As for the question of the day, i don't know, not all death involves pain (well not to the person dying at least) i've never really felt afraid of dying, of massive pain and injury yes, but not dying...

hey laura! just think, we're almost done!!! whoohoo! intersting question. i think death is so scary because it's unexpected, and when people are dying, they think they've missed out on something in life, like "i could have done so much better" or something. also people who aren't really sure what's on the "other side", i mean, we have faith that there's a heaven, and God will take us there, but we've never seen it, so you're on this threshold of the "unknown" so to speak. i'm not saying that i feel that way, but i'm sure a lot of people do! i don't know.

I think I agree with andie. People in general are more afraid of the unknown than anything that they know. Somehow in our minds, if we know it we have power over it, which in a way is true for many things. But death is a completely unknown (unless you know the One who's been there and back again).

it's a good, really good, thing that u r patching things up with people.

school's almost done for both of us!!!! i end June 3. lucky. u end May something. i forget when but i'm envying you. i know i shouldn't but it's kind of hard to.